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A Bullet to the Head

So today was the beginning of summer classes, and I just feel so upset right now.

1.

a. There was an old couple riding a motorcycle

b. there was this guy who was backing his car up

c. the car bumped the motorcycle

d. the old couple fell down

This scene petrified me. I stood there the whole time, contemplating on what to do. I was paralyzed. There was this debate going on in my head. I wanted to run to the old couple and help them, but they already stood up, and they were soiled too. I also wanted to run to the traffic enforcer, but some dude was way ahead of me. I wanted to fight for them, but that job was taken too. So I stood there, with tears in my eyes. Horrified. I didn’t know which fault was it  though, but it got me. 

2.

I had a dental appointment, and I waited there for like 45 minutes or whatevs, and the dentist’s assistant told me to come again tomorrow because of some unpredictable happening. 

3.

The teacher was discussing god knows what, and I completely zoned out. I was staring at the leaves, thinking about this and that. 

 This : There’s this guy, who keeps chatting me and he has a girlfriend

 That: There’s like 4-6 guys like him

I couldn’t help but think less of myself. I know I shouldn’t mind them, but I felt like a second choice of some sort, some second form of consolation. Nonetheless, I didn’t entertain any of them. 

4.

Family Problems. (will prolly blog about this soon)

Maybe it’s the weather, maybe it’s just me. Same old Mia, making a big deal out of small things. Focusing on the little dot on the paper instead of the paper itself. I feel dumb. Becoming this too-sensitive-shit again. Feeling everything all at once. Screw it.

Summer Bummer

So I have summer classes and look at my schedule. Ugh. I have 7am classes. *cries a pool of blood* 

 

Parenting, you’re doing it right.

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Summer Safe Haven + add ons

I’ve been in a lot of ups and downs lately, good thing I have books! Yes, I hide in the comfort of books, consider ‘em as my Safe Haven. Instead of adding another set of scars overlapping old ones, I have found another way of making myself feel better. I GET COMPLETELY LOST in books.

 I read because I want to escape from my thoughts

 I read to be somewhere else

 I read to be someone else

 I read to get completely lost

Thus, an explanation for the photos.

So, recently, I have finished 5 books. (Because I get too lost, I spend a lot of my time on contemplating slash wishful daydreams of being the girl in the books instead.)

1. Eleanor and Park | Rainbow Rowell - This such a damn good book. Like to the milky way and back. 

“I don’t like you, Park,” she said, sounding for a second like she actually meant it. “I…” - her voice nearly disappeared - “think I live for you.”
He closed his eyes and pressed his head back into his pillow.
"I don’t think I even breathe when we’re not together,"

2. Fan Girl | Rainbow Rowell- at first I thought it was a weird book, but bloody hell, I fell in love with Levi. umf. auagduafu I love you hahahhahah! Okay, still hungover with the book. I LOVE THIS BOOK. I CAN NOT EXPLAIN HOW THIS MADE ME GIGGLE AND ROLL which led me to falling off my bed.

“She smiled, and her eyes started to drift downward. 
"Cather…" 
Back up to his eyes.
"You know that I’m falling in love with you, right?” 



3. The Ocean at the End of the Lane | Neil Gaiman- A good book, by the author who wrote my favorite movie.

 “I do not miss childhood, but I miss the way I took pleasure in small things, even as greater things crumbled. I could not control the world I was in, could not walk away from things or people or moments that hurt, but I took joy in the things that made me happy.” 

4. Invisibility | David Levithan - From my favorite author. Decided to finish it. It is one good hell of a book. Agggggggggggh!!!!

“Easy things are worthless,” Laurie says. and I realzie he’s talking to both Sean and me. “It’s the hard things that matter. Those are the things worth leaping for.” 

5. Paper towns | John Green - One of the two books I like written by John Green. (Yes I only like 2 books from him. The other is An Abundance of Katherines) THIS SCREAMED ADVENTURE. MARGO SCREAMED MIA. This book made me realize a lot about myself. I, myself was a girl made of paper. God. PEOPLE SHOULD READ THIS. SHOULD READ ALL THE BOOKS I JUST MENTIONED ABOVE. HAHHAHHA Talk about obsessions. 

"We can hear others, and we can travel to them without moving, and we can imagine them, and we are all connected one to the other by a crazy root system like so many leaves of grass—but the game makes me wonder whether we can really ever fully become another.” 

The other photos that aren’t book covers:

6. I’m in love with Dave Franco (and Theo James) *open secret*

7. Captain America the Winter Soldier was A M A Z I N G, I watched it with my friends, and God. I can’t fathom the immensity of how I love Agent Maria Hill, and Falcon and *names all the characters*. I can’t believe I prohibited myself from watching MARVEL movies because of *insert reason here* hahahha. I am such a loser.

Also, I have been buying a lot of things lately. (AND IT’S NOT FOOD, FYI hahaha!)  Maybe I’ll post my haul or something. Soon soon. And maybe I’ll post things about the scratches on my face. I prolly need to think bout that tho. Weirdo says bye! 

I did a post and answered this too tho :(


i think my parents should be thankful that all i do is spend time on the internet. i could be a drug dealer or serial killer, but am i? no. you’re welcome

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2k13blogger:

what if your pillow could collect your dreams and when you wake up you plug it into your computer and watch them over again

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awwwwwwwe :’)

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